Tuesday night ramblings...

Today a friend shared with me a blog post by a woman who had two miscarriages and then went on to have a baby. It was an interesting perspective. Here is the link: http://huff.to/1bPdGqB. One of the parts that really resonated with me is this:

"We believe that speaking the truth about the heartbreaking journey of losing a baby is essential. Healing comes through understanding what we have been through and what may lie ahead. By speaking about our experiences they can become integrated into who we are and allow us to move along."

Reading the whole post made me think about things I try not to think about, like the fact that I, too, should be planning a first birthday party for my child right now...pinning ideas and picking out themes and such. Instead I am on day two of shots for my third round of IVF post miscarriage. (Enter "shots" song into head...).  I realize that sounds silly but it is what I think about. So I allowed myself a few tears driving home, and maybe right now while I type, but that's it. Things could be worse. In the grand scheme of things there people far worse off. I would rather spend my energy focused on the future. I'd rather spend it helping my friends and families get through tough situations because I know I can handle it. These experiences have helped to shape the woman I have become so ultimately I don't wish they never happened, because now I think I am more compassionate, understanding, and patient.   I have a wonderful husband, many friends, I love my job and really when it comes to it-I'm truly happy right now. 

Now to close, I leave you with these e-cards, which definitely made me laugh!! 

Yes, of course! I thought maybe I could get pregnant via immaculate conception. Just like the mother-f'n Virgin Mary. 

"Just relax and it will happen". I am relaxed!! Just because I happen to want to discuss how I feel about this situation doesn't mean in not relaxed! I'm sitting in my pj's right now under a warm fuzzy blanket relaxed as can be. This brings me to the next...

My personal FAVORITE!!! 

I don't really care what your co-worker's friend's sister's daughter went through. Each person has a different set of underlying medical issues being brought to the table. I have my own protocol and will not have the same experience as her, or her, or her...  I do get support from women who have had to go through what I have for all this but it's like we are in a little sorority and people who aren't just don't get it. 

Ha!! The other day a 9th grader saw me (whom I had previously taught in middle school) and exclaimed "Miss!! Why don't you have any babies yet!?  Aren't you trying to get pregnant? Did you hear I'm pregnant?"  Lovely...just lovely. 15 years old. 

3 more weeks until ER day!!