Needles

Wow. So first of all I'm a horrible blogger when I am working. Second, I don't think I've ever worked as hard and as much as I do this year, and third, my house looks like a addict lives here. I know I'm supposed to put my needles in the sharps biohazard container each night (and I do!...eventually) but it's so hard to remember to do it so late at night after I've fallen asleep. And since my hubs doesn't like a biohazard box in the living room...my coffee table looks like this in the morning: 

lol. I never thought I would grow up to have needles laying all over my living room and an expert at filling a syringe. Alas, that's my life right now.  I mean...at least I clean up before company arrives. 

In other non-baby, baby news, my embryo transfer got pushed back by almost three weeks. It's a small price to pay, however, to have not had to take the pill. I only ended up in the transfusion center once (so far) this cycle for IV meds to treat a migraine.  That's not too bad!! On the negative, I have had to take so much lupron that I might end up running out and will possibly have to buy another 200.00 vial. I will buy it if I have to but that's a lot of money to pay for only a few days of injections. I think I have 7 more....and knowing that the Walgreens pharmacy delivers next day, I am pushing my luck.

 I really hope that this little embryo survives the thaw (my biggest concern actually) and can make it through the transfer. I know I should be more positive but honestly I just can't find it in me to even be hopeful. I am assuming it won't take, as usual, and I will have to start a whole new cycle. On the positive side, if this doesn't work and I don't end up pregnant, chad said we can take a few months "off" and go on vacation. This should give me a few months to lose some weight and let my body recover a bit. Maybe we can even look into some adoption agencies and at least get some info on cost, time, requirements etc, that way when it comes time to having to sign up we will be ahead of the game. At this point I don't really care if I get pregnant or get handed a baby by a stranger. I just am over this.