Home Doppler

Woop! I'm 10w4d today and I heard the baby's heartbeat for the first time at home. I haven't posted in a while, mostly because I've been too sick and most definitely too tired to do so. I really am just starting to feel like I can make it out of the house to do anything (although I'm tired thinking about it). Last week we went in for a scan, basically because I was freaking out and had a migraine, and found we lost one of the twins. It's common and occurs in up to 30% of twin pregnancies. We are pretty bummed about it but I am focusing on the fact that I still have one living baby in there. I pray that he or she keeps growing and growing. It's so nerve wrecking though!!! Since the demise of that twin, however, I've started feeling better, compared to how I was before. I was so tired that just getting through the work day was extremely difficult. I really can't even express how it felt to be that tired. Now I just feel normal pregnancy tired. 

When I went to the bathroom today I had just the teensiest amount of light brown-almost tan spotting on the tp. If I wasn't obsessively checking the tp after every wipe I wouldn't have even noticed. So my neurotic self pulled out the Doppler. After a few minutes I finally found the HB of the baby. It was on the opposite side of where I thought it would be, right next to or behind my own whooping heart beat from the huge artery along my left side. One tiny fraction of an inch to the right of it and I heard the baby! I have heard my own noises enough to know that the galloping noise was baby. It's so distinctly different. It wasn't super loud bc of my own noise but it was there and registered in the mid-to-high 140s. I hope  this is a good sign. I think I'm having a boy. I have this gut feeling that the other twin was a girl. Idk just intuition. I can't wait to be out of this first trimester and feel a little safer!! My next appointment is in 3 days.