No luck

Well I probably should have posted quite a while ago. I am definitely out this round. I knew by 8dp6dt that I should really have been getting a positive test and by 10dp6dt I stopped taking my meds (well I actually kind of weaned myself off of them, esp the PIO). I have to say that while I'm bummed that it didn't work, it was a relief to not have to take a slew of pills and shots. Now I am finally getting over having my period and my headaches are easing up. I've had some really good days where I felt great and I almost forgot what it was like to be pain free, nausea free, and not constantly exhausted. I can even go up all the stairs and not feel like I'm dying! 

We have decided to take a few months off since this cycle and last were so so rough on my body. Im going to talk to the doctor at the end of the month and formulate a plan. I might push for three embryos to transfer because I want to have twins and be done with all this nonsense. I know, however, that he doesn't like to have twins. My argument is going to be that I respond so poorly to all these meds I don't want to have to go through this so many times in my life. I need all the chances I can get. We will see what he says. 

So for now I'm going to enjoy the holidays then get serious and start exercising and eating healthy. I want to try to lose 15 pounds by March. Honestly I should be able to lose more than that but I'd be happier with 15. I think it will help. However I keep having panic moments when I just think I will never be able to get pregnant and never get to have a baby, so I'm really pushing my husband to allow me to sign us up for an adoption info session. I have no idea where to even begin, but I need to take some control over this. 

On an unrelated note, I spent the day with my friend and her 14-month old twins and 2 and 1/2 year old son at the mall today. Let me tell you we had fun and I'm exhausted!!! Definitely enough to tide me over for a while lolol. When/if I do ever have kids I'm in for a rude awakening lol. 

So I'm out for a while...happy holidays!!!